Sad Poems
How sad it is that I shall no longer feel your touch.
No longer will I feel the warmth of your hugs.
Your kisses placed gently upon my cheek.
Your hands braiding my long curly hair.
Oh, for so many years I have wept.
If only once I could call you and hear your reply.
You are my reminder that life should never be taken for granted.
You are my reminder that above all else life should be cherished.
As I pressed my lips upon the red rouged cheek; I knew that it was not you.
Your spirit was no longer in your body.
Your body was never cold to my touch.
Your eyes were always open when I called you.
Your love will always be eternal.
For, until I depart, I will always remember my dear mommy.
My dearest daddy 'I love you',
I think of you each day.
I feel your arms around me,
that's how I get through my days.
Your looking down upon me,
to guide me on my way,
but its very hard without you,
each and every day.
People always tell me,
the grieving will subside.
But how can it get better,
without you by my side.
No matter how hard they try,
to help me with this pain,
I am all consumed by thinking,
It will never be the same.
I know one day we'll meet,
in the Heavens up above.
It's the one thing that helps me,
to never forget your love.
My dearest Daddy, I love you,
Your with me every day.
I will keep this love within me,
until that beautiful day...
Window panes come crashing down
Amidst the tears and pain
Vanishing hopes are gone and flew away
Up above through twilight
Shadows cast across the floor
Reflections of the past
Trembling thoughts of one
Dwelling deep within the soul
A mystical sense of reality
Captured by the craze
All in bewilderment
Of the shock in the wave
Creatures of the dimness
Chattering amongst the green
Everything slows in stillness
What is this we see
Every new beginning,
comes from some beginnings end.
Every time you kill me,
I am born again.
Every time you close that door,
Another door is opened.
And every time you say goodbye,
a different word is spoken.
Every time you look at me
my back is facing you,
And every time you ask to see me
I'll have something else to do.
Every time I join your game,
You're not playing fair,
And every time I really love you,
I pretend that I don't care.
Sometimes I sit and stare
I think and hope that life would be fair
Nobody seems to get it
They just have no clue
That I can be a friend that is really true
Everybody whispers
All the laughs, the jokes, nobody cares
The way they all make fun of my frizzy red hair
If only life could be easy
I wish that life could be fun
I wish I didn't have to run and hide
I face the future
Already planned for me
No nothing for me to expect
There?s nothing to wait and see
For my destiny has been mapped out
I shall have no more youthful days
I shall never feel the thrill again
Of raucous, rebellious ways
I shall rear a child for eighteen years
Maybe even longer
For although I?m still a child myself
I?m going to be a mother
A seed floating in the wind with no direction
Slowly fading away, it has no protection
Lands on the bank but sees no reflection
A choice must be made, life's intersection
Grow into a tree or fade into the past
Soar like an eagle, this spring may be it's last
A decision must be made before the dead of night
Is it time to lie down and die, or is it time to fight
It made the right choice and decided to grow
But wasn't its choice to make, of this it did not know
Already determined the seed would never be a tree
It dreams of a better life but hope is all it will ever be
My God, why did you take my mother
Angles took the wrong one - not her - another.
Regret is a feeling that I feel everyday;
You took her from me, and I didn't say -
I Love You, Mom, in my own way;
Only to hear her say it back to me.
God, why couldn't you just let us be
She didn't deserve to die;
Didn't deserve to be in pain,
Only to leave me here asking you why -
Night after night when I cry in vain.
I'm sitting here
Sad and all alone
Crying lonely black tears
No one around to help me
No one, not that I can I see
Just leave me be
To cry my lonely black tears
Don't try to help
Your just to late
I can't escape
My lonely black tears
After all these years
I'm still sitting here
Crying my lonely black tears
One day maybe
They'll stop flowing
The tears will quit growing
Deep inside
And I will cry no ore
Lonely Black Tears
A couple of years ago,
My friend Michael was diagnosed with leukemia
It was like a clash of thunder creeping through the sky.
My friends and I just prayed for the Lord to heal him through
Michael's spirit will never fade
because he is like an angel watching over us
At the end we had to say goodbye
but we all knew that he was raised up on eagle's wings
And now through these days we hear him
soaring through the skies like a little butterfly
And Michael, don't forget we're your friends, your best friends
As I wandered through those fenced in fields
among those flowers, you're almost concealed
I wrap my fingers carefully around
you don't know I'm there, I didn't make a sound
No matter how soft I am, I bruise your light wings
not knowing the damage, a song I sing
Caged in my grip, you start to worry
you start to cry and your vision gets blurry
You don't know where you're flying now
wings can only fly as my grip will allow
Starting to realize you were meant to fly
your spirit slowly starts to die
If only you'd known I was on my way
you'd have turned around and flown away
If only your screams I could hear
those fences never would have disappeared
But I watched you go with only a sigh
you're long gone now, My Butterfly
I'm a free spirit that has been shot down and wronged
I pleaded for help a kind gentle mercy
My heart felt like it rose up to my throat as you choked the life from me
I cried with pain; can barely speak your name
Throat swelling burning like a flame
This fire this burning I'm yearning for help
This is all I have ever felt
My life as its slipping
Veins running cold
My blood as its churning its last
My lungs choking for air breathing heavy
And nobodies there to hold me tight
Or watch this site as I fall to my knees
In a last try to be set free abandoning all of me
Because there is nothing left for me
Why can't I ever just see
As the rain falls it sucks the life from me
My one joy to hear and feel the rain and it consumes me
And this ending pain; no more shame
Dedicated to my grandmother who always believed in me.
I remember a type of quote people used to say
But I never really understood it 'til today
Life will only get harder from here
I think about that almost every time I shed a tear
I look back on the happy years I once had
And I wish for them to come back Oh so bad
Pressure is a big part of teenage lives today
Temptations of sex, drugs, and violence never seem to go away
You never really know which road to choose
It seems which ever way you go, your bound to lose
Happiness eventually falls on your lap
Only to look once more and see it gone in a snap
Why does it seem I can't smile like before
As if the joyous part of me walked right out the door
I never show my true feelings which is why I'm writing this poem
I guess my feelings are personal to me and I'm too embarrassed to show 'em
One day I'll find happiness again
I just have to live my life until then
And while I'm waiting just for that
I think I'll give myself a pat on the back
'Cuz I've come this far without giving up completely
I'm trying to enjoy life, it's very difficult, believe me
I guess that's the message I'm trying to send out
To keep your head up when giving up is what your thinkin 'bout
Take life's punches right in the face
And you'll see things will come to you at there own pace
Silence builds an awful wreckage of a girl
It feeds on loneliness and creates a void
Gray shadows haunt and torment and torture
A teenager is stricken and destroyed
There is no sound of laughter or happiness here
The little one has thrown in the towel today
Somber, melancholy moods decay the soul
It is futile to hope and dream and pray
Emptiness builds a home in this woman
In this girl, this child where hollows have bred
A deepening sea of nowhereness consumes
And eats away at every connecting thread
Confusion feeds like a savage inside her,
Leaving nothing considered worthy remains
Destined to walk through life less ordinary
Alone, exiled, different and disdained.
My life is so cold without you here
Each day I try not to shed a tear
It seems like just yesterday you left my life
When I first heard the news it cut through me like a knife
I went to my room and sat on the bed
As the words kept running through my head
I kept wondering why God took you away
Each night I kneel down to pray
And ask if I could see you for just one more day
Knowing that you're not here tonight
Makes me wonder if I'll be alright
Each morning I wake up and hope it was a dream
and when I find out your not here
It makes me want to scream
Each day I think of running away
Hoping I can find you some other day
And since you're not here my life is so cold.